SMILE LAUGH

semangat ya nad, thank to all people who talking to me. because talking to people make me forget that things!

takut

sebebnernya gue masih muda masih kecil kenapa jg harus udh takut, rasanya tuh gaenak bgt rasanya gue pengen teriak rasanya tuh sepi bgtt. ah gmn ya mau cerita tp takut jg cerita ke orang, rasanya gue bener bener stres bgt rasanya kyk ah sesah bgt di jelasin. kayaknya enak bgt liat org org enjoy bgt tp gue lg gak bisa padahal kmrn2 tuh gue bisa ya enjoy bgt kayak gt semenjak lusa kemaren gr gr baca tuh artikel sialan jd gue ketakutan gt harusnya gue ga pernah baca itu aja kali biar gue ga ketakutan walopun gr gr ketakutan gini gue jadi rajin solat bgt tapi tetep aja rasanya gmn sih kalo ketakutan. gue butuh bgt org yg bs nyemangatin gue rasanya semuanya lg hampa bgt di pikiran gue kyknya gada yg msk ke pikiran gue selain ketakutan. mau ketawa mikirnya hampa rasanya hampir sama kayak dulu tapi gue gamau kayak dulu lg ketakutan bgt sampe kayak org gila gue ga mau kayak gitu, gue gamau nangis2 sendiri kayak dulu. gue tau kalo cuma gue sendiri yg bisa ngatesin ini, tapi gue jg butuh suasana yg cheerish ga ky suasana rumah terus yg sepi. sampe sekarang gue coba buat mikir gue berani gue berani. tapi gue butuh bgt sesuatu buat numpahin rasa takut gue, buat nyebutin kenapa gue takut aja gue gak berani karena kalo gt gue bakal tambah takut lagi. gue cm butuh sesuatu yg hibur gue biar gue bs lupain takut gue, setiap gue megang dada pasti rasanya detaknya cepet bgt kayak abis olahraga gue udh ketakutan parah sampe kayak gitu, gue tau kalo gue takut terus malah bahaya buat gue sendiri. gue malah ngundang apa yg gue takutin itu. Ya Allah semoga aja takut ini ilang ya Allah biar gue bisa kyk biasa kyk kmrn kmrn aminnn

nose up

actually this is kinda freak thing but i really want to buy this one whatever other people say! and i already order this one and i just need to transfer money!!! but my mom kinda annoying! actually i didn't say what i want to buy, if she know i want to buy this she will not let me buy this. and i'm jeaolus with ayu which she say she already buy this thing. AAAAAAAAAAAAA I WANT BUY BUY

shoot nations(again)

this morning i got an email from shoot nations said it's only 1 onth again until shoot nations end. That's mean i must upload photo, and i started panic! i saw my slr pitcures document and i FOUND many good photo match for shoot nations competition, oh GOD thanks!! but the person in all my picture is my sister (FYI=my sister is kinda a "narsis" person) but thanks sister!

today

today gue puasaaa! sumpah ya laper bgttt, kayaknya perasaaan gue perut gue bunyi setiap berapa menit sekali anjrottt. trus gada kerjaaan lg bkn tgambah laper aja sumpah ah. trus nyokap gue gabisa di telpon tetek bengeeek padahal gue BUTUH TRANSFER DUIT!!!!!!!! sialalalalalalaallaal betek bgt

bye 8.8

8.8 so many story with this class(iya ya?)
sbenernya gue ga begitu kyk 7.3 dulu gt sm nih kelas soalnya ga byk yg dr kelas 1 yg gue kenal gt. tp in this class i get more smarter(you know why(buat sela jgn kegeeran)
tapi gue betah bgt di kelas walopun kadang sela ama ayu rese abis(cth ke resean=psp gue dibw kabur gue nyariinnya sampe muter sekolah)hahha.
this is few of my class mates
Sheila, my chair mates
temen gue dr kelas satu trus dulu, kita doa gt biar sekelas dulu eh kebeneran sekelas, malah sebangku gt. tp sela tuh jail abis sukanya nyubitin orang trus jailin gue.tapi dia jg enak di jg cees-an(buat apanya you know what) HOHO.
Ayu, duduknya belakang gue
sukanya ketawa gajelas,menghayal tapi cukup menghibur. ayu nih pgn bgt jadi hollywood girls. saran gue yu lo belajar nyanyi sampe suara lo bagus trus kirim demo siapa tau jadi terkenal ya yu. oya ayu narsis bgt sela sk ngomel kalo ayuS kebanyakan foto di hpnya.
Sye, belakang sela sebelah ayu.
sye ini ratu BB, dimana ada sye pasti ada BBnya. plg sering BBnya ditaro di bwh saputangan. sye dulu nih orgnya ky detektif suka nyelidikin. dan pernah mimpi nemuin adam air. semoga lo nemuin beneran ya sye. oya syela rambutnya udh panjang loh

ahmad&dower&dito. ahmad yg udh bosen gue liatnya soalnya satu sd satu kelas dr kelas 7 dan tadinya satu les jg pis mad & dower yg itu sm *** ya ga?sukanya senyum2 mesem walopun nyadar bibirnya dower&dito yg mirip bgt sm badannya bantet ky sinchan

holiday

holiday? yeah i'm really happy when i heared that word. Holiday=i can go to somewhere outside my house=fun. But this holiday i'm really bored! my parents like busy with their own problem and my sister really busy studying for smptn. so that's mean no one in my house will ask me out for refreshing. if i go with my friend my mother will garrulous, she always answer "NO" if i ask her permission, she will said money thing! ah i always wish i'm a really rich women in the future and i can buy anything. so this holiday i always watch dvd(and my mom said "nonton terus kamu ya" ah gue pergi gaboleh trus ntn jg digituin trus gue harus belajar terus gt kalo gt nanti otak gue umur 20 thn bs bs sarafnya pts kali ya), because my IM2 modem really shit already over kuota, that's mean i can't searching youtube blogging and facebook(tough i really rarely blogging). ah i really want to go somewhere,just seeing place through tv just make me dreaming about it! but thanks to my cousin, she gave me some dvd to watch. Dvdnya kocak abisss sampe peerut gue mules ntnnya thanks mbaa